i stayed with him.


I stayed with him
that night.
You will never know.

He didn’t kiss me.
Not then.
He held me.
We whispered in the dark.
And then nothing.
silent understanding.

I could not describe.
You will never know.
I could not speak.
I told Andy I was drunk.

I was drunk.
And then not so much.
You will never know.

I am sorry I didn’t want you.
I am sorry.
I couldn’t.

He kissed her.
Touched her.
Held her.

You wanted her.

We made love.
I didn’t tell you.
It was too much.
He kissed me.
I could not speak.
I could not describe.

I am sorry.
I couldn’t.

I stayed with him.
That night.
And again.
I needed him.

He kissed me.
While you held her.

I was scared.
He saved me.

I am sorry.
You couldn’t.

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