Monthly Archives: October 2012

force

I would have preferred it
if you’d hit me.

Left a visible mark.
drowned me in physical pain

Then I could show you the terror;
the bruises you left would speak for me.

I hear your words,
your excuses

And you don’t understand –
telling yourself that I should be able to forget

Asking for me to support you?
Your anger and hatred

Your friends stand by
because they trust you.

You escape among the warm comfort
of another lie.

I am alone
but safe.


i do not.

i do not feel.
i do not need.
i do not want.
i do not hear.

i see.
i smell.
i breathe.
i wait.

please let me. dance.


it’s the business.

He’s in the business
Of
Lying.
Truthfully.

You’re in the business
Of
Wishing.
Tragedy.

I’m in the business
Of
Finding.
Pain.

It’s not your business.
You won’t find me.
I switched industries months ago.


the day I got my official spy kit.

this is what happens when you give me aviators.  the world gets a spy.