Monthly Archives: September 2013

wordle ii.

http://www.wordle.net/show/wrdl/7085593/iwishiwasaspy

one year later.

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stop looking at me.

i stood there.
like a mannequin;
like a fool
of perfection and happiness.

i stood there.
inside a black pool
of torture;
of emptiness, broken and torn.

i stood there.
blank smile;
fake laugh;
could they tell?

i stood there.
i played the game.
now collapse,
into the dark shell of comfort.

i stood there.
now leave me.


trust ii.

image


shadow.

i never see the cloud forming.
i never hear the rumbles,
as the sky descends
and the world is a shadow.

it is too much to ask.
i can’t. i can’t. i can’t.
i cry.

it is too much to ask,
that i keep my head
upright, treading water.

it is too much to ask,
i am sinking
and i do not trust myself not to succumb.

i never see the cloud forming.
i never hear the rumbles,
as the sky descends
and my world is a shadow.


not so much.

i am abandoned.

and rejected.
and alone.
and defeated.

again.

so it goes.


memories.

image


time and silence.

moments with you
fill me up.

memories of
jokes and cleverness;
music and lyrics;
time and silence.

today I stopped to realise
I hadn’t thought of you all day.

And I missed you,
but it made me smile.