Monthly Archives: October 2013

dare to keep.

this is not a tragic love story.
and this is not “could’ve been”,
“should’ve been”, would’ve been”.

this is not a question or a quandary.
and this is not a case of
“unrequited”, “disassociated”.

the reason they call it a best friend
is because there is only one.
you remain my best friend
and the only one,
i dare to keep.

this is not a high school fancy,
and this is not a summer fling,
Paris dream, lust-fuelled wandering.

this is not a dalliance i’ll forget.
and this is not just life experience,
lessons learnt, character strengthened.

the reason they call it a best friend
is because there is only one.
you remain my best friend
and the only one,
i dare to keep.

if you dare.
to keep me.
i dare.
to keep.

if you dare.
to keep me.
i dare.
to keep.

the reason they call it a best friend
is because there is only one.
you remain my best friend
and the only one,
i dare to keep.


i will always.

i want to tell you
that i love you.
i want to remind you,
that i still love you
like i used to.
even when you didn’t want
to hear it;
even when
you couldn’t hear it.

i want to show you
that i love you.
i want to remind you
of my smile;
like i used to.
on the days
when you couldn’t.
even when smiling
broke your heart.

i want to feel you
in our silent cocoon.
i want to remind you
that i will always,
hold you;
and hear you;
and tell you.
even when you
can’t be here.


kissing you.

was always…

soft.
warm.
deep.
full.
fresh.
stain.
breathe.

i like you.


they weren’t there.

You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night
Then you said, “Wait for me, we’ll fly the wind
We’ll grow old and you’ll be stronger without him”
But oh, now my world is at your feet, I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I’ve drowned
So now, I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me, “I was wrong”

But they weren’t there beneath your stare
And they weren’t stripped ’till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren’t taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn’t say “No”

You sighed and I was lost in you
Weeks could’ve past for all I knew
You were the blanket of the over-world
And so I couldn’t say, I wouldn’t say “No”
And they all say, “You’re too young to even know
Just don’t let it grow and you’ll be stronger without him”
But oh, now my world is at your feet, I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I’ve drowned
So now, I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me, “I was wrong”

But they weren’t there beneath your stare
And they weren’t stripped ’till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren’t taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away

But they weren’t there beneath your stare
And they weren’t stripped ’till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren’t taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn’t say “No”

~ Missy.


it’s a numbers game.

today I read all the emails.
yours and his and his and mine and then some.
i found love.
i found …

216+753 = 969.
i wonder about the word count.
969 is too much.

but.
+150
neither of us would ever
choose such a straight number.

how did we lose it?
“i can’t not respond.”
one day.
no direct questions.
just us.
and silence.


one day.

i miss the day
you came back.
you stood on the other side
of the door.
and somehow I knew
it was you.
and we stood,
and you held me;
and you needed me.

i miss the day
you turned up.
you stood up on the other side
of my window.
and somehow you knew
not to call me beautiful.
and we talked,
and you held me;
and you needed me.

i’m waiting for the day.
one day.
you might
miss me.
because everything
reminds me of the way
we stood,
and we held each other
together.


high expectations.

i want to fall in love.
and i don’t want to have to convince you
that i’m worth it.