Monthly Archives: January 2016

film.

she watched
the whole movie.
full of lust
but also terror
and pressure;
at pace with
trail bikes;
pirouetting daggers –
you are not
enough,
you are not
enough.

they falter
as they watch,
but she is drawn
to the pain.
an understanding
and shared
vulnerability.
catch the moment
but don’t
look away.
she know why
it is back.


birthday.

no fuss.
but breakfast
pancakes,
smutty smoothies,
and a quiet
kiss in the street.

no fuss.
but cleaning
and losing
your keys
in the doorway.
flatter me.

no fuss.
but make love
to me
in the blue
sheets.
don’t stop.

no fuss.
but play fights
and wrestling
puppies;
makes me giggle.

no fuss.
but back rubs
and an awkward
social hunger.
bring me undone.

no fuss.
but gratitude
and a spy
in the street.
was it too much?


cake.

a cautionary tale
in baking.
but the happy
ending came,
if not a little
brittle on the
base.

stick of butter,
cream and cheese;
sugar upon sugar
upon buds
of melting cocoa.
coated lining of
sticky custard.

two loves
collide to create,
gluttonous,
marbled mess.
showing off
a rich indifference
but underneath
the quivering brow.


night cream.

strobe and lighting,
excellence of care.
maintain and pull,
but deny it.

save your worry
lines, for the
theatre and
the ball.

say your prayers,
be wary
of the players
and the spies.

ball tight,
create light.
switch and watch,
tired and fade.

keep running
through the falling
clouds of sharp
green ice and butterflies.

switch, switch, switch.
the fire is
still beneath you;
don’t watch.

strobe and lighting,
excellence of care.
maintain and pull,
but deny it.


revenant.

like the hero.
she surfaced,
from the molten
tar and ash.
they threw
stones, and
they watched,
as she stumbled,
silently.

there was
no revenge
in her eyes;
just a precise,
driven stare.
daring judgment
and throwing
shade among
fellow warriors.

again she returns;
against the
unimaginable;
against your
wishes.
do not envy
her strength;
be proud,
and join her.


raw.

just patience
and gentle
reticence.
two souls
fumble and
strive.

just friendship
and cherished
attention.
two souls
linger and
caress.

just love
and daring
affection.
two souls
committed and
adoring.


defy.

you know what?
his best friend died.
his father left.
his mother cried.
and you want
to shame him?
he found one
thing.
to hold his beaten heart;
constant and
supportive and
challenging and
gratifying.
i defy you
to take it
away.


prescribe.

medication
is just the
beginning.
opinions and
dress codes;
language and
etiquette;
my body is
finally mine.

give them
control;
let them fight
and let them
dream.
curse and
struggle.
this is
your body.


familiar.

it shouldn’t
be a burden.
but i feel
the weight
and expectation.

smile, breathe;
drink, drink, drink.
how to reconcile
and appease,
the endless pressure.

i go.
my duties
fulfilled.
drive, drive, drive.
breathe. smile.


tenacity.

courage
and encouraged.
i hoped to
swim.
walking on toes
across
the diving bridge.

courage
and encouraged.
i hoped to
dive.
i went alone
holding
my own hand.

courage
and encouraged.
i hoped to
fly.
the dive was
graceless.
my wings sprouted.