Category Archives: External author

[divide].

there’s a monster growing in our heads
raised up on the wicked things we’ve said
a great divide between us now
something we should know 

there’s something to remember
and something to forget
as long as we remember
there’s something to regret 

something we should know
there’s a mountain higher than we knew
it’s high but such a bitter view
a great divide between us now 

something we should know
a great divide between us now
on different sides of a great divide

– “the great divide,” the cardigans.


“l o s t.”

i’ll be damned if i do it, damned if i don’t
i’ll be lost if i love him, lost if i won’t
and i can’t muster up the courage to say it’s best that i leave
i can’t muster up much of anything when i’m feeling you breathe

my human heart won’t mend itself
when my own two hands are ripping out the seams
oh, it seems i’m my own worst enemy, oh
i’m doing it to myself

i’ll be hurt if i leave him, but turn cold if I don’t
he’s the sweet of a morning kiss, but there’s a poison it holds
sticking thorns into my spine but i won’t let go
sticking thorns into my sight, but i’ll keep my eyes closed

my human heart won’t mend itself
when my own two hands are ripping out the seams
oh, it seems i’m my own worst enemy, oh
i’m doing it to myself, oh

i’m doing it, i’m doing it, i’m doing it

with my own heart i won’t let it mend
use my own two hands, i rip out all the seams
oh, it seems i’m my own worst enemy, oh
i’m doing it to myself, oh

i’m doing it, i’m doing it, i’m doing it
to myself

~ liza anne.


arms.

i never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
but you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

you put your arms around me
and i believe that it’s easier for you to let me go
you put your arms around me and i’m home

how many times will you let me change my mind and turn around?
i can’t decide if i’ll let you save my life or if i’ll drown

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me ’cause i’m already falling
i’ll never let our love get so close
you put your arms around me and i’m home

the world is coming down on me and i can’t find a reason to be loved
i never wanna leave you but i can’t make you bleed if i’m alone

you put your arms around me
and i believe that it’s easier for you to let me go…

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me, ’cause i’m already falling
i’ll never let our love get so close
you put your arms around me and i’m home

i try my best to never let you in to see the truth
and i’ve never opened up
i’ve never truly loved till you put your arms around me
and i believe that it’s easier for you to let me go

i hope that you see right through my walls
i hope that you catch me, ’cause i’m already falling
i’ll never let our love get so close
you put your arms around me and i’m home

you put your arms around me and i’m home

~ Christina Perri


nightminds.

just lay it all down. put your face into my neck and let it fall out. 
i know 
i know 
i know. 
i knew before you got home. 
this world you’re in now, 
it doesn’t have to be alone, 
i’ll get there somehow, ‘cos 
i know i know i know 
when, even springtime feels cold. 

but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, 
so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. 
and in our honesty, together we will rise, 
out of our nightminds, and into the light 
at the end of the fight… 

you were blessed by a different kind of inner view: it’s all magnified. 
the highs would make you fly, and the lows make you want to die. 
and i was once there, hanging from that very ledge where you are standing. 
so i know 
i know 
i know, 
it’s easier to let go. 

but i will learn to breathe this ugliness you see, 
so we can both be there and we can both share the dark. 
and in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds 
and into the light at the end of the fight. 

…and in our honesty, together we will rise out of our nightminds 
and into the light… at the end of the fight…

~missy. 


michigan.

The clouds move over Pontiac skies
Their silent thunder matches mine
I know this feeling from long ago
I wonder if it’s gone now I know

So when she calls don’t send her my way
When it hurts you’ll know it’s the right thing

Michigan’s in the rearview now
Keep your hands where I can see them
You took the words right out of my mouth
When you knew that I would need them
What am I supposed to do now
Without you
Without you

It’s unannounced like you’d expected
Among broke down break lines and Motown records
And all that’s left is a blind reflection
But you know what’s coming and you regret it

So when she comes don’t send her my way
When it hurts most it’s the right thing

Michigan’s in the rearview now
Keep your hands where I can see them
You took the words right out of my mouth
When you knew that I would need them
What am I supposed to do now
Without you
Without you

Michigan’s in the rearview now
Keep your hands where I can see them
You took the words right out of my mouth
When you knew that I would need them
What am I supposed to do now
Without you
Without you

~The Milk Carton Kids


jar of hearts.

i know i can’t take one more step towards you
’cause all that’s waiting is regret
don’t you know i’m not your ghost anymore
you lost the love i loved the most

i learned to live half alive
and now you want me one more time

and who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting your jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

i hear you’re asking all around
if i am anywhere to be found
but i have grown too strong
to ever fall back in your arms

and i’ve learned to live half alive
and now you want me one more time

and who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting your jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

and it took so long just to feel alright
remember how to put back the light in my eyes
i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed
’cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back
you don’t get to get me back

and who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting your jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
so don’t come back for me
don’t come back at all

and who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting your jar of hearts
tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
don’t come back at all

who do you think you are?

who do you think you are?

who do you think you are?

~ C Perri.


what now.

i’ve been ignoring this big lump in my throat
i shouldn’t be crying,
tears were for the weaker days
i’m stronger now, or so i say,
but something’s missing

whatever it is,
it feels like it’s laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
whatever it is,
it’s just laughing at me
and i just wanna scream

what now? i just can’t figure it out
what now? i guess i’ll just wait it out (wait it out)
what now? oh, oh, oh, oh! what now?

i found the one, he changed my life
but was it me that changed
and he just happened to come at the right time
i’m supposed to be in love
but i’m numb again

whatever it is,
it feels like it’s laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
whatever it is,
it’s just sitting there laughing at me
and i just wanna scream

what now? i just can’t figure it out
what now? i guess i’ll just wait it out (wait it out)
what now? please tell me
what now?

there’s no one to call ’cause i’m just playing games with them all
the more i swear i’m happy, the more that i’m feeling alone
’cause i spent every hour just going through the motions
i can’t even get the emotions to come out
dry as a bone, but i just wanna shout

what now? i just can’t figure it out
what now? i guess i’ll just wait it out (wait it out)
what now? somebody tell me
what now?

i don’t know where to go
i don’t know what to feel
i don’t know how to cry
i don’t know oh oh why
i don’t know where to go
i don’t know what to feel
i don’t know how to cry
i don’t know oh oh why
i don’t know where to go
i don’t know what to feel
i don’t know how to cry
i don’t know oh oh why

so what now?

~ Rihanna


human.

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that’s what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that’s what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that’s what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I’ll get through it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human

I’m only human
I’m only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
‘Til I’ve had enough

‘Cause I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human

Christina Perri


they weren’t there.

You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night
Then you said, “Wait for me, we’ll fly the wind
We’ll grow old and you’ll be stronger without him”
But oh, now my world is at your feet, I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I’ve drowned
So now, I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me, “I was wrong”

But they weren’t there beneath your stare
And they weren’t stripped ’till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren’t taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn’t say “No”

You sighed and I was lost in you
Weeks could’ve past for all I knew
You were the blanket of the over-world
And so I couldn’t say, I wouldn’t say “No”
And they all say, “You’re too young to even know
Just don’t let it grow and you’ll be stronger without him”
But oh, now my world is at your feet, I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I’ve drowned
So now, I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me, “I was wrong”

But they weren’t there beneath your stare
And they weren’t stripped ’till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren’t taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away

But they weren’t there beneath your stare
And they weren’t stripped ’till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren’t taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn’t say “No”

~ Missy.


The Invitation (by Oriah Mountain Dreamer)

the result of some e-stumblings today…

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for,
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love,
for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow,
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own,
without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own,
if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful,
to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself;
if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul;
if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it’s not pretty,
every day,and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine,
and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair,
weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you,
from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Oriah Mountain Dreamer