Tag Archives: patience.

stride.

eat my
hand;
draw breath
and see
the raw mist.

call the
question
unearthed
and captured
in real time.

my brain
permanently
intoxicated,
high anxiety
and the dull grey.

watch her walk
see the stride,
a purpose
unknown
but free.

loose flesh
and fish oil
stains;
waiting in
silent terror.

longing sobs;
inevitable loss.
leave quietly
or rather,
don’t let me fall.

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dirty.

​and then
the dirty blood
began;
thick, gel-like
and brown.

it pooled in clots
and stained
his legs,
and ruined
the cloth.

draw it out;
do your time.
eventually,
peace will find you,
before a new facade.


foam.

stretch and wait;
what’s it like
to be the one
silently asking?
you’ve put those
words in my mouth,
and it doesn’t matter
how many times
i spit them out.

stretch and wait;
what’s it like
to be the one
waiting for the end?
patiently and quietly
i wait for you
to discover –
to admit defeat –
you’ll spit me out.


salary.

how many
games
do you have
the patience
for?
playing
the long
game;
the waiting
game. again.

is it worth
your heart?
do you
remember
that you’re
still living?
do you
remember
this is all
there is?


don’t let go.

you should
be here
beside me;
your words
and your arms
still scare me,
but you
should be
here. beside me.

those words
have always scared me.

that look
in your eye
and i didn’t
want to let go.
just hold me
closer and
forever.
that look
in your eye

and you weren’t
letting go.


monsters.

he wondered,
did it feel
better,
if someone knew
you were crying?

the smallest
monster
relatable;
we were watching
the crystal smoke.

i can wait
if you
can teach me
to trust
your heart.

the harried
are breathless;
but i expect
only you
and your monsters.


sabbatical.

tasteless
dreams
full of
flavour,
but devoid
of real,
nourishing
fulfillment.

what are
you
searching
for;
exactly?
she giggles
with an
endless jig.

go away
and sit
with the
silence;
embrace
the freedom,
and then
return.


definition of madness.

i am in love
with the man
who has crushed
my soul,
and beaten
my heart,
until each rib
cracks;
and then shatters.
yet still i wait.
and still i love.
and rebuild. again.


medicate.

these empty wings
were waiting,
with a relentless
don’t push me down
again;
just grasp my lungs
tight
and drown me.

wear the face
of hope.
they get tired of
sadness and pain.
but then
don’t be so surprised
when i want
to disappear.

i don’t want.
anymore.
give me every drug
in the store.
because
i don’t want.
any more.
please stop trying:
it’s over. let me go.


frozen.

it’s like.
my heart was finally
hydrated.

your elusive smirk
that always caught me
off guard.

and i could feel
myself melting;
the stubborn ice queen;

finally [you]:
protector and co-conspirator,
lover and believer.

i will always remember every
touch, word, song, kiss:
you undid me.

i wish i had more confidence,
that you will come
back for me.

already.
the ice caps are returning;
my lungs… collapsed.

it is all i can do
to keep my side
of the promise.

i only hope – [one day] – you
find my heart;
still beating.

still meltable.
and not,
frozen.